xanga's my new boy

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seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
i can show you i'll be the one
i will never let you fall
i will stand up for you forever,
i'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.


second shot for you. silence doesnt always mean ignorance.

dammit.i feel so empty without you, maybe i was nothing to you even from the beginnning, not even a friend, not to mention a close one.

this candy got you sprung.

tuesday was FINALS (: double champs for us haha. at fajar sec. grass jellly(: ahh then coach shook hands with all of us. ): sad. thenn thursday had prize presentation at damai. caught a bit of the ac-cat high finals, cat high won ): hahah but coach looked awesome cool in slacks omg haha like he was wearing skinnies(: haha our shinayyy medals (: FRIDAY prize presentation in school. ahh the bluddy mike thingo was too high ): i was like tiptoeing luh omg so paisehh (: oh well gym's challenge cup is HUGE omg damn biggggggg. haha. clapped for trudyy haha steady luh indiv (:

iwmy):

i thought in one lifetime, the most we can lose is one friend and feel sad about it. the rest didnt really matter aint it? but just in one day two friends can be lost. the relationships have been broken and can never been mended. to be honest, one of them doesnt deserve to even be an acquaintance but the other one i cherish so much. whenever i needed someone to be there for me to be there to catch me if i fell to be there just to hear me rant about anything you would be there and somehow just as i hear your voice it made me feel better or if it was just looking at you smile oh so sweetly looking away so shy it never helped to bring a smile to my face. now not only do i not have anyone to make me feel that way anymore there will always be that empty space in my heart which cant be filled no more and forever at the back of my head i know the trust between us is gone i cant ever tell you anything and you cant tell me anything as well. i miss the days i could just sit in bed and just smile thinking of you. i never expected anything to come out of this all i wanted was for us to be friends and just friends cause i know i'm not good enough for you. but now we cant even talk anymore. i really miss you. forgive me for being ugly i dont mean it, who does? i just cant wait for the day where we can finally talk again, the day i can see your smile once more to hear your voice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COACH (:

you will be our favourite bestest coach ever
even though i've only known you for such a short time but i will really miss you. damn those asses who took you away ):

this is the last time ;

you're my wonderwall

for so long this year, i never imagined you will leave so soon. after every month i tell myself its gonna be a few more mths to spend all the time i can have with him. but now it seems as everyone starts emphasising it, he's leaving real soon.

thinking back, last year when i first join softball i really sucked. even though he was scolding us and stuff you just know that he really wants to help you and when you do well he acknowledges it and the whole thing is beautiful. all those jokes and fun times we had with him, no matter how little , seem so hard to be forgotten. its just like i've known him forever but actually i've only known him for slightly more than a year.all our valuable lessons in softball and stuff were taught by him and just thinking about having a new coach to replace him is just awful. he's been such a wonderful coach and it just sucks to know he's leaving.

its so hard to think about the finals during srcs. against stc. he was both our coaches and somehow it was awkward very much. at the end of the match his actions were really quite upsetting. its almost like we're not his team anymore. no more dream team. :( what would become of us without coach jerry

orange boots, coincidental much?

srcs yst (: we won haha woots (: haha go nanyang (; made some contact but screwed up running. train harder shauna .. ahh was quite alright i guess with breaks in between with batchies. ahh was reading halfway through haha cos they started mugging (: haha i'm the slackerr. ahh i officially love kallang (: tmr sure will bring back some good memories.

I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again



eh cheer up (: things will work out finee and do get better soon (:

and now thinking back, i sure smile at myself. what an uncanny coincidence.

i should have seen long ago, this thing, we, were not possible. why would someone like you like me? why did i have the stupid immature thinking that i had a dash of hope and chance? why was i so stupid . i'm just letting myself sink into this dream, running away from reality. now someone shakes me up and gives me time to think. i know now, this is all just a game to you and i'm the toy. you dont even know when i'm hurting inside so bad, when i badly need someone to talk to and you're just somewhere else with your other commitments. its evident i mean nothing to you i'm just one of those people you dont want to know. i guess i should stop all this nonsense, make everyone happy huh. now i'm living under the shadows afraid of offending others i feel like shit. i dont want to be that kind of bitch she is. i just wanted you and if that i cant have, i think its time to end this here.